14 Weeks!

I won't lie to you.....the past 14 weeks have been crazy and some of the hardest weeks of my life. However, they have also been some of the most wonderful and rewarding weeks I've ever experienced. I can't really tell you how they can be both at the same time, but they just are. Having a baby truly does change everything. For those parents out there, I just want to let you know that I get it now, I finally understand. For those that aren't parents yet, words can't describe it all.

There are some days, like today, that I'm still in my nightgown, haven't brushed my teeth, ate a breakfast bar while pumping breast milk before the sun came up, ate lunch with one hand, and watched a baby show about ABC's for the 100th time. And I have to say, it's worth it. I love my little boy with all my heart. Yes, don't get me wrong, a shower would be nice right about now, but I would rather watch him smile in his sleep and smile myself while doing so. The spit up on my nightgown and the smell of baby wipe on my hands is just fine with me. No sleep? No problem. It seems I've mastered how to operate without any.

I know he's only a few months old, but I'm already thinking about his first Christmas, giving him his first valentine, seeing what the Easter Bunny will bring him, his first birthday party, and what he'll do when he experiences the beach for the first time. I had a wonderful childhood and I get to re-live it all through my son. The big events of the year are the things that stand out, but I plan to enjoy each and every single day with my boy, not taking any of it for granted.

Until next time, please enjoy a couple of pictures of Caleb in his swimsuit for the first time. He was only in the water for a few minutes, but he was still cute! I'm off the sterilize bottles and feed little man his 2nd lunch.

R